So here we GOOOOOO!!!!!
For the past 20 years ive been trying to drop some unnecessary "fluff" that i have unabashedley accumulated. Seeing as how ill be 30 this year, thats a long time....and a lot of "fluff". Ive always been a lil chunky, since i could remember. I look back at ballet pics from when i was 4 and i got that "pooch" that causes the belly-button shadow to make an appearance. But it never bothered me. I mean, i could move, and bend better than some of my thinner, sveltier gal pals. I could (still can) reach my toes with ease, i can stretch my legs pretty far apart (thanks to BALLET u sickos!!) and i can twist my body in weird positions to make myself "fit" in places.
IM TOTALLY COMFORTABLE!!! Im a confident person. Im cute, im smart, got a nice rack. I have a bf who loves me unconditionally no matter what i look like. (And if uve seen me without make up and no coffee ud think him a SAINT or blind) I have family that loves me and supports me in whatever i do. This is for ME and ME alone. Ive catered to everyone else all my life and supported everyone on THEIR OWN journeys. It MY TURN to work on ME. And ill do it (try to ayway) with the least amount of bitching and moaning as possible. Time to lose the excess baggage an show off the curves that mamma gave me that are undoubtedly hidden...somewhere.
So begins day uno (1) of my journey, neh ADVENTURE into the world of DIETING!!!!
Obviously im no stranger to the ATTEMPT of dieting. Some years i was doing good, others not so good. Junior year in high school i managed to convince myself that i need to drop 20lbs to up my chances of fitting into the dress that i hadnt bought yet (hadnt even searched for) to wear with the guy who hadnt asked me yet (didnt even care who it was as long as he asked) to the Junior Prom. Needless to say, i was doing 100 crunches, and 100 leg lifts every night to reach my imaginary goal. Only problem was, i never bothered to ask when the stupid dance was and before i new it, it had come and gone and i was none the wiser. CRAP!!
This time though im doing it with a purpose. And with my hunny at my side. He's 6'8" and is naturally a big guy. The weight doesnt show so badly on him , but he's determined to lose weight more for health as oppose to vanity. Me, i just wanna wear something skin tight and strapless without cutting off circulation of air or blood and doesnt come in a Ban-Aid box.
So here i go, newly renewed gym membership in hand, work out clothes, water, powerbar, and a lil prayer to the powers that be that they wont need a car battery to jumstart my ticker after the first 5 minutes.
WISH ME LUCK MY PEOPLE!!!! Today is a NEW day!!!
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